Suicidal Thoughts Finding Stacey and her RTT work will forever be one of the greatest blessings ever received in my life. Stacey is such a sweet and wonderful soul. She deeply cares about you and your story and her warm, empathetic nature is already healing in itself. I have been to two hypnotherapists in the past, who have cost me so much money and time to have not seen an ounce of progress in the direction I did not know was even possible to reach before Stacey's help. I was very resistant to getting my hopes up and believing that this could work for me, having done therapy and such before this.  I am 21 years old and I had struggled with severe depression and suicidal thoughts for over 10 years. My mind was a battlefield, every second of every day, every interaction with the world around me was painful and triggering. I had deep self-hatred towards myself that I couldn't shake and it would show up that way in my daily life with everyone and everything I knew. People were rude to me, my friendships were a struggle, it was bad day after bad day and if I did have a good day, I knew it wouldn't last long because the other shoe would drop eventually and I would dive right back to where I came from, agony and darkness, where It would be weeks before I would see the light of day again.  I felt unimportant and unloved to those around me. I thought I was broken beyond repair and that something was deeply wrong with me-I would run around and around in my head trying to figure out what it was, as the world projected it all back to me. I hated being and thinking this way, though, never experiencing the otherside of this way of living, I knew somehow, that I deserved more than this. I knew feeling like this wasn't normal anymore and that I needed to keep searching. When I found Stacey and we talked, I felt heard and acknowledged for what I had gone through. I was frustrated to have to tell the same story and explain myself again to another therapist, but to my surprise, she deeply understood me and the complexities of my mind very quickly, which was so comforting to me. I was very nervous to do the session because it was difficult to believe it would help me in any way, but in fact, it worked beyond what i ever thought was possible.  The session was beautiful and eye-opening to me, I saw the way my mind and body was protecting me for all these years starting from when I was a small child to now. The timing of the session was the night before leaving on a planned friends trip, one that I was dreading for weeks, knowing I would be bringing me and the mental distress and anxiety that's ruined many times and memories for me in the past, but instead, the next day after our session was like the first day of my life. I was slowly and gradually starting to notice how good I felt and how much fun I was having with everyone around me. It was the first time in my life where I felt free, like I didn't have to hide or hold back anything, my mind wasn't racing with doubt or worry about what people thought around me. I was outgoing and goofy, parts of me that I rarely saw and suddenly, I didn't care what anyone was thinking because I felt good and happy with myself, a feeling foreign to me. My mind didn't try to dissect anyone's tone or words or try to internalize anyone else's problems. I could brush things off without any mental effort and know deeply that there wasn't anything wrong with me and that there never was. I could love myself for me and I didn't need anyone else to do it for me. Slowly as time went on, I would notice more and more little things I had never done before. I could make friends with people wherever I went. I could instantly stand up for myself and voice my opinions without shying away and without inner turmoil of upsetting them too because I did it for me and because I knew I deserved love, respect, and consideration, just as much as anyone else. I started to become so much more brave, confident, strong, and peaceful. The love for myself was so bright and strong that I even met someone special within the first few days after the RTT and we've been together ever since. My life before RTT vs now, is like black and white. The world I'm living in now is so much brighter and simpler. I can breathe here and live freely being and loving me for who I am. Suddenly, people around me are sweeter and friendlier. My friends notice the difference in me too and note it to me often saying how happy they are to see me so lively and joyful, after knowing the dark places I used to be in often.  Sometimes in even the smallest moments of my days now, I find myself with tears in my eyes still in awe of how different my life is and how grateful I am to be here experiencing my life in this way. I can honestly say that this has saved my life. If it wasn't for Stacey and the RTT work we did together, I don't think I'd still be here. I was hopeless, lost, and burdened by my own inner baggage and pain that I carried with me everywhere, not knowing that life could be just this lovely and good, and now so excited for the rest of my life. I thank the Lord everyday for helping me find lovely Stacey and this healing over my life. If you have been considering doing this work, please do, because it will change your life for the better in so many ways. Stacey is a godsend blessing and you will find deep healing for yourself with her. Thank you Stacey, all my love to you.  March 2020